Day 19

I so need to get my weekend sleep schedule and week sleep schedule coordinated.  I went to bed sometime after 12 last night and woke up at 8:30 this morning.  This afternoon I took a nap at 4 which means bedtime tonight will be late again.   So then tomorrow will be a late morning and then Monday's 6 am rising will lead to another cycle of exhaustion building to the weekend.  At one time I was on a good sleep schedule - waking up at same times and going to bed around same time every day....  need to get there again somehow.

Today I didn't eat a lot of meals, but the food wasn't all the best for me - but it was good LOL.

I did a lot of walking at stores today, but didn't really keep track to much.   I did go and officially rejoin the gym today.  It's got some really great programs.  I got a 20% off coupon for a paid class or massage or other program offered there so I signed up for GTS pilates class on Friday evenings.  I had taken this class a while back and loved it and I actually would love to get a machine for home.  Total gym sells one but well it's 3000$ - just a bit out of my home gym budget.  The class doesn't start until March 1st.  They're already half way through the current session - all classes are 8 week sessions.  I also have a fitness orientation set for Saturday the 30th - they'll set up a weight program for me so I can get going on that.   I need to take full advantage of all their programs and offerings - massage, whirlpool, pool (both regular and heated) and sauna.  I also think they have a healthy weight program I need to try and find out more on.

Stress is starting to ramp up.  I have a lab report that I want to get done by the end of this weekend and I also noted I have two tests after next weekend so I need to get to work during this week.  Work is piling up at work as well - I felt like I was drowning last week at times.  I don't know that I recognize the stress or "feel" different per say, I just know that its there and building - i have small little, "Oh crap" panic attacks, but they last about 5 minutes and then I'm right back to, "It's okay one thing at a time" - or so I think - I mean, I think I'm okay, but I just am not 100% sure when it comes to stress.  As a youth I think I got very good at covering it up and not letting it show, but I think that's a problem now.

Okay, so food today:
Breakfast/Lunch: Perkins - eggs benedict with hash browns and a muffin.  I ate most of the eggs benedict and hash browns, but I didn't eat the muffin.  I'll toast that for breakfast tomorrow morning.  I had 2 cups of coffee with 4 packs sugar and 3 packs half and half. (It's not a very colorful breakfast)
Snack: Tropical Smoothie Sunrise Sunset smoothie - strawberries, mango, banana and orange.
Dinner: Left overs from dinner last night - the other half of my spring roll order, and the left over rice and sweet and sour spicy chicken.  I didn't eat all the rice.
Dessert: 1/3 of a chocolate eclair from Perkins.  (I bought 2 - cut each in thirds and eat a third a day for sweet treat - but I was good.  The lady said, "It's buy 3 get 3 free."  And oh that was soooo tempting, but I behaved and said no.  I could have done it and frozen them, but that was just too much and no room in freezer and too tempting - 2 was enough.  Being able to say no at a limit is a good step right???)